Chapter 19

Vanessa wrote letters.
Karen screened them.
Most blamed Elise.
Some blamed postpartum depression.
Some blamed me.
One, years later, sounded different.
Ryan,
I wanted to be needed so badly that I made our son unsafe. I do not know how to live with that sentence, but it is true.
Tell Maria I am sorry if she ever wants to hear it.
Vanessa
Maria did not.
Noah did not.
I placed the letter in a file.
Contained.
May you like
Not forgiven.
Contained.