Chapter 13

Lauren asked for a plea deal.
Her lawyer approached Alicia first.
“She wants to apologize privately.”
“No,” Alicia said.
I was grateful she answered before I did.
Lauren then sent a letter through counsel.
Hannah,
I never thought it would go this far.
I know I used your pictures, but you don’t understand what it felt like being invisible next to you. Men trusted you. Jobs opened for you. People believed you. I just borrowed that for a while.
I never wanted Claire to hit you.
I miss my best friend.
Lauren
I read it three times.
Then placed it on the table.
My mother asked, “What do you feel?”
I said, “Like she apologized to herself.”
Alicia nodded.
May you like
“Accurate.”
I did not answer Lauren.