Chapter 4: The Account Nobody Knew About
By the time I reached my parents’ town, the sun had begun to rise.
My mother was waiting on the front porch when the taxi pulled into the driveway.
She had always been an early riser, but the moment she saw my suitcase, her expression changed.
“Althia?””
I tried to smile.
“Hi, Mom.””
She hurried down the steps and wrapped her arms around me.
That was all it took.
I had held myself together through the dinner, the argument, the elevator ride, and the long bus journey. I had managed to answer Michael’s questions without breaking down. I had even reviewed several financial records while sitting beneath the bus’s dim overhead light.
But my mother’s embrace undid me.
I buried my face against her shoulder and cried.
She didn't ask what had happened.
She simply held me until my breathing slowed.
When she finally pulled back, she noticed my pale face and swollen eyes.
“Have you eaten anything?””
I shook my head.
“Not really.””
“Then we'll fix that first.””
She took my suitcase while I followed her inside.
My father was already in the kitchen, reading the morning news over a cup of coffee. He lowered the newspaper when he saw me.
His expression hardened with concern.
“What happened?””
I sat down at the kitchen table.
“Michael asked me for a divorce.””
My father put down his coffee.
My mother stopped beside the stove.
Neither spoke for several seconds.
Then Dad asked, “Did he explain why?””
I told them everything.
Jessica's accusations.
Carol's comments.
Michael's threat.
The moment I revealed my pregnancy and received no comfort in return.
The way Jessica had accused me of using the baby to trap her brother.
And the final humiliation of walking out while she packed my leftovers into plastic containers.
My mother covered her mouth.
My father stared at the table, his jaw tightening with every sentence.
When I finished, he asked the question I had been afraid to answer.
“What do you want to do now?””
I looked down at my hands.
“I don't know if I want to save the marriage anymore.””
Mom pulled out the chair beside me.
“Then don't decide everything today.””
“But I'm pregnant, Mom.””
“I know, sweetheart.””
“What if I'm making the wrong decision?””
She took both my hands.
“Having a baby doesn't mean you have to accept being mistreated. And getting divorced doesn't mean you've failed as a wife.””
I looked at her, tears gathering again.
For seven years, I had been so determined to prove that I belonged in Michael's family that I had forgotten what it felt like to be loved without having to earn it.
My father finally spoke.
“Did he know you were supporting his family?””
“Yes.””
“Then why did he let them call you a freeloader?””
I couldn't answer.
Because I had asked myself the same question all night.
Dad leaned back in his chair.
“Althia, you didn't marry into that family to become their financial safety net.””
“I know.””
“Do you?””
His voice wasn't angry with me.
That made it hurt more.
“You have spent years trying to make everyone comfortable,” he continued.
“But who has been making sure you're comfortable?””
I lowered my head.
Nobody, I thought.
Not even me.
Mom prepared breakfast, although I could barely eat more than a few bites. She made ginger tea when I told her about the nausea and insisted that I lie down afterward.
For the first time in months, nobody expected me to solve a problem before I had finished dealing with my own.
I slept for nearly four hours.
When I woke, my phone showed seventeen missed calls.
Eleven from Michael.
Four from Jessica.
Two from an unknown number that I suspected belonged to Carol.
There were also several messages.
Michael's first text read, “Please call me. We need to talk.””
The second said, “Jessica is upset about the tuition.””
The third was more direct.
“Did you really pay all of Tony's school expenses for three years?””
I stared at the screen.
He was still asking about the money.
I had told him I was pregnant.
I had told him I was leaving.
I had asked him to proceed with the divorce.
Yet the issue that had finally captured his attention was a school payment.
I set the phone aside and opened my laptop.
If I was going to move forward with a divorce, I needed to understand my financial position completely.
I logged into my personal accounts and began gathering statements.
The property-tax payments were easy to identify.
So were the utility bills.
The transfers to Carol appeared under a separate category because I had labeled them as family assistance.
Then I found the tuition payments.
Three years of transactions.
Each one sent from my personal account.
Each one documented.
I downloaded the statements and organized them into folders.
As the list grew, I began remembering the circumstances surrounding individual payments.
The month Jessica said Tony needed tutoring before an important examination.
The time Carol complained about an unexpected expense.
The weekend Michael told me his sister was struggling and asked whether we could help.
I had rarely objected.
At the time, I believed we were supporting people we loved.
Now I wondered how many times my kindness had been used to construct a story in which I was the dependent one.
I opened a blank spreadsheet and entered the larger expenses.
Property taxes.
Utilities.
School fees.
Tutoring.
Family transfers.
I did not include every grocery bill or every household purchase. I wanted the record to be clear, factual, and useful.
When I finished the first section, I sat back.
The total was much higher than I had expected.
And that was only the beginning.
I remembered the apartment's original purchase expenses.
Michael had handled the negotiations, but I had contributed money toward several costs associated with establishing our household.
Some funds had come from my savings.
Others had come from investments I liquidated before our wedding.
I had never treated those contributions as loans.
We were married.
I thought our future belonged to both of us.
But now that divorce was on the table, I needed professional advice about what the records meant and which assets or obligations required closer examination.
I called an attorney recommended by one of my father's longtime friends.
Her name was Elaine Porter.
Her office agreed to arrange a consultation for the following afternoon.
Before ending the call, I asked what documents I should bring.
“Anything related to your income, assets, debts, and household contributions,” her assistant said.
“Especially records you believe may become disputed.””
I spent the rest of the afternoon gathering them.
Then my phone rang again.
Michael.
This time, I answered.
“Althia, thank God.””
His relief sounded so genuine that for one dangerous second, my heart softened.
Then he continued.
“Jessica says the school needs confirmation that Tony's tuition will be paid by Friday.””
I closed my eyes.
“Hello to you, too, Michael.””
He paused.
“I'm sorry. I just need to understand what's happening.””
“You could start by asking how I'm feeling.””
Another silence.
“How are you feeling?””
The question came so late that it almost sounded rehearsed.
“I'm tired,” I said.
“I'm pregnant, I'm staying with my parents, and I'm trying to understand why my husband threatened divorce before I could tell him we were having a baby.””
“I didn't know you were pregnant.””
“You knew enough to ask for a divorce.””
“I was angry.””
“And I was hurt.””
He sighed.
“Althia, can we stop blaming each other?””
I looked at the spreadsheet on my laptop.
“You want to stop blaming each other before you've even acknowledged what happened.””
“I know I shouldn't have said what I said.””
It was the closest thing to an apology he had offered.
But he continued before I could respond.
“Still, you can't suddenly withdraw from everything without warning. My family has obligations.””
I stared at the phone.
“Your family has obligations?””
“Yes.””
“What about mine?””
“What does that mean?””
“It means I have obligations, too. I have a child to think about now. I have medical appointments.
I have to protect my finances. I can't keep paying for everything while being told I'm a burden.””
He was quiet.
Then he said, “I never called you a burden.””
“No. You let your sister do it, then suggested divorce when I asked you to defend me.””
“That's not the same thing.””
“It feels the same when you're the person sitting alone at the table.””
For several seconds, neither of us spoke.
Then Michael asked, “Are you really going to stop paying Tony's tuition?””
“I already told you I won't be paying it on Friday.””
“Jessica can't afford it.””
“Then she needs to make arrangements.””
“She's my sister.””
“And I'm your wife.””
The words escaped before I could stop them.
Former wife, I thought bitterly.
Michael seemed to hear the distinction I hadn't spoken aloud.
His voice softened.
“Althia, I don't want us to destroy seven years over one terrible evening.””
I looked at the small gift I had placed beside my suitcase.
The white baby onesie.
Seven years.
One evening.
He was trying to make it sound as though the problem had appeared out of nowhere.
But that evening had only revealed what had been building for years.
“Michael,” I said, “the divorce didn't begin when you said the word. It began when you decided I wasn't worth defending.””
He inhaled sharply.
“I need some time to think.””
“So do I.””
“Can we talk tomorrow?””
“I'll be meeting with an attorney.””
He went silent.
“An attorney?””
“Yes.””
“Althia, are you serious?””
I looked at the documents spread across my parents' dining table.
For the first time since leaving Manhattan, I felt something other than grief.
I felt prepared.
“Yes,” I said.
“I'm serious.””
I ended the call before he could turn the conversation back toward his sister's financial problems.
Then I returned to my spreadsheet.
I had no intention of using money to punish anyone.
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But I was finished pretending that money didn't matter when it was mine being spent.
And if Michael still believed I had been living off him, he was about to see a very different version of our marriage.
