Chapter 6

My father and I — we rebuilt. Slowly.
He got an apartment. Small. Modest. He went back to work — he'd retired early, but he got a part-time job at a hardware store. He said he liked working with his hands. He said it made him feel useful.
He came to my house for dinner once a month. At first, it was awkward. We didn't talk about Gwendolyn. We didn't talk about the past. We talked about the weather. About his job. About my work — I was an interior designer, and my business was growing. The hillside house had been featured in a magazine. Clients were calling.
Slowly, we started talking. About my mother. About the good years. About the years he'd lost. He apologized. Again and again. I didn't forgive him quickly. But I let him try.
One evening, he brought a photo album. Old photos. My mother. Me as a baby. The house being built. We sat on my porch and looked at them. He cried. I cried.
"I missed so much," he said. "I missed you. I was there, but I wasn't there. And I'll never get those years back."
I put my hand on his. "No," I said. "You won't. But we have now. And that's something."
He nodded. He squeezed my hand.
Chloe came to dinner once. Just once. She was different. Quieter. Humbler. She wore a coffee shop uniform. She'd gained weight — healthy weight, from eating regular meals she'd paid for herself. She apologized. To me. For the bedroom. For the clothes. For the years of cruelty.
I accepted the apology. I didn't forget. But I accepted it.
She's in community college now. Studying business. She works at the coffee shop. She has a small apartment. She calls me sometimes. Not often. But enough.
Gwendolyn was sentenced to six years. She appealed. The appeal was denied. She wrote me letters. I didn't open them. I didn't need to. She was a chapter. Closed.
I sold the Maplewood house. I couldn't live there. Too many memories. Too much pain. I sold it to a young couple with a baby. They were going to repaint. Renovate. Make it their own.
I took the cherry wood cabinet. I had it moved to my hillside house. It sits in my dining room now. I keep my mother's dishes in it — the ones Gwendolyn didn't give away. I found them in a box in the garage. She'd been going to donate them. I got there first.
The scratch by the doorway — I couldn't take that with me. But I took a photo. It's framed, on my kitchen wall. Next to a photo of my mother. Next to a photo of me and my father, taken recently, on my porch.
I look at those photos sometimes. And I think about that dinner. About the two words that changed everything.
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"All right."
I'd said them calmly. Quietly. No drama. And they'd freed me.